49
I remember when I was about 13 years old how I thought being 18 would be so cool and being 24 would be so very old and boring… Now am I over twice as old as I thought myself to be ‘very old and boring’, and when I see someone who is 24 I think he/she is SO very young and new to life ;-).
Numbers, and the judgement we have to them, are so irrelevant and uninteresting. 49 is just another magical number. A number representing another year in which I can learn and grow and become more of who I am. Never in my life have I been more fit, strong, healthy, happy, content, peaceful and inspired as I am now. I love the woman I have become, I love what I can bring into this world, I love the opportunities I have received and still receive, I love my friendships with likeminded women, and most of all I love how simple things make me happy.
Now, before I continue, I’d like to share something else. Most of my life I have been surrounded by men. Having a mathematical and analytical mind, studying Physics and IT Management, working as a consultant in IT for 20 years, I always struggled to connect to women. I felt I could not relate to them, I did not speak their language. My biggest wish was not to 'marry and have kids', I wanted to travel, own my own company and be ‘someone’. It is through my yogic journey that I have started to love and appreciate women, including my own feminine qualities. I love our intuitive mind, how sensitive we are, our mood swings, our ability to care for others even more then for ourselves.
When I look ahead in time I’m excited to embrace my feminine qualities and I can not wait to become a ‘crazy grey haired woman’. The time where older women dressed in plain colours and were unseen in our society is over. Women like Meryl Streep, Audrey Hepburn, Helen Mirren are paving the road for us ‘youngsters’ to be seen and heard. As Meryl Streep wisely said as an older woman you ‘no longer’. No longer do we have to spend time with people who do not deserve our time, spend time on what displeases or hurts us, or love those who do not love us back. I’m not there yet but I’m keen to learn :-)
The older I get the more I realise that I have a gypsy soul and a warrior spirit. My heart is wild, my intuition strong. My aim no longer is to be ‘normal’, my aim is to be extraordinary and magical. My aim is to touch as many likeminded hearts as possible. I want to be the inspiring yoga teacher in the nursing home when I’m 85, talking about how to open your crown chakra just before I pop into another handstand ;-)
It feels like all the things in my life I have done so far, all the beautiful people I have met, all have been a preparation for where I’m heading towards. I’m on my bliss path, I feel inspired and I truely believe the world needs strong, wise, older women. As Gloria Steinem says “One day an army of grey haired women may quietly take over the world”. I’m definitely looking forward to that day.
